and I thought i was just a total beeotch..... but then realized i live in a NOT so normal situation

I have been struggling for sometime about whether to leave my diabetic husband or not..... i thought our problems were mainly stemming from ME. I started reading online about many other wives , married to type one diabetics are going through the very same things.... i feel empowered. I feel less crazy. I feel less of a bitch. I feel i sacrificed any chance of having a "normal" life with someone else ( god bless my daughter though- she is a blessing) but yet nobody realizes or appreciates that i literally married someone regardless of their disease...i married them for shear LOVE.  My thought was that diabetics deserve to be loved too... Little did i know how my life would change.  I own my own business and need to do some work for that now- but will be using this as a sounding board for my own struggle for sanity in a life of chaos and uncertainty and NOT looking forward to the future. How sad is that?  ... And i thought i was just a crazy beeeotch- which, yeah i probably am- but there are things that made me this way! Living with someone who can say whatever they want due to their sugar level but then expect you to "forget" about bad memories... ummm it's called a scar... you hurt me..there is going to be scar tissue... and i have a LOT- Hard to continue to love someone who never sees the sacrifice you made to be with them... all because of LOVE. Appreciate that person- they should freakin be your QUEEN.